February 28, 2025: 8:38am

I’m just trying to hang in there till the astroid hits.

February 27, 2025: 5:52pm

Why does God take the good ones, and let the bad ones run this planet?

February 23, 2025: 5:37pm

It always just comes down to me wanting her back.

February 20, 2025: 7:59am

He reminded me failure wasn’t an option for her. I told him it felt like my only option.

February 20, 2025: 7:55am

They asked me to write 500 words. I wrote 16 with the weight of 500, it’ll have to do.

I’m a renaissance woman with a mind for the future and a soul for the past.

February 20, 2025: 7:52am

How protective they are of their male painters. I get it though. Protect the fragile.

February 20, 2025: 7:41am

Meanwhile, the world order is next.

February 20, 2025: 7:35am

Went to his studio and told him I didn’t consider myself a painter. He looked at me like I should apologize.

February 19, 2025: 8:44pm

What happens when men don’t get the attention they desperately need in their adolescence?

They make the world suffer.

February 15, 2025: 6:24pm

Am I going to walk through the fire because I’m the only one who may not feel the burn?

February 14, 2025: 7:00pm

I think I’m in the denial stage of grief, and I think I’ll just stay here.

February 13, 2025: 6:00pm

Newton’s Universal Gravitation: every mass in the universe attracts every other mass with a force proportional to the product of their masses and inversely proportional to the square of the distance between them.

I think this might explain love.

February 13, 2025: 9:05am

a few years ago I remember saying there was no need for democracy if human evolution leads to robots. I take it back…

February 13, 2025: 4:33am

death of the well-rounded human? we’ll specialize in our ‘viral’ talent and nothing else.

February 11, 2025: 5:17pm

Completely undermining it. I mean where will that leave all of us? This is the rich vs the poor and it’s a rich man’s world.

February 11, 2025: 5:13pm

Newton’s Laws

1. Inertia: An object remains at rest or moves in a straight line unless acted upon by an external force.

2. F=ma, where force equals mass times acceleration.

3. For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.

February 8, 2025: 1:05pm

No formal system can be both complete and consistent.

• a complete system could prove every true statement

• a consistent system avoids contradictions (it doesn’t prove both X is true & X is false)

Can you prove that no starting chess position leads to an eternal cycle of moves without repetition?

January 22, 2025: 4:36pm

We’re becoming immune to noise. Society is becoming louder and louder, but does anyone actually hear each other?

January 19, 2025: 10:29am

I sat on his face and read The Long Game.

January 9, 2025: 7:16am

Who wants to have kids when the world is on fire?

December 31, 2024: 5:58am

He told me yesterday that humans spend 3 to 4 months on their phones in a year… You probably spend 6 if you’re married.

December 24,2024: 11:46pm

But it’s empty because it’s between a screen and me.

December 20, 2024: 10:23am

I kind of hope it doesn’t come to that though. I think I’d like to be a painter more than I’d like to be dead.

December 18, 2024: 7:12am

My jaw hurts when I go down on him too. I’m getting too old for this shit. I walked into town and got some detox tea. That’ll fix it.

November 15, 2025: 8:34am

I forgot to ask my mom about menopause.

as she was

cyanotype, 2024

November 15, 2024: 7:00am

I wonder if my art will suffer now that I'‘m not.

November 14, 2024: 4:55pm

It looked like something akin to the breakdown of law and order.

November 13, 2024: 8:11am

You found peace in watching the birds, a kind of refuge in their freedom. 

sing me a little song, bill

2024

October 13, 2024: 9:10am

The other night I dreamt I had to use a toaster in front of a crowd of people. But the toaster wasn’t plugged in and people were standing in front of the outlet but I was too embarrassed to tell them to move because they’d just watched me smash bread so it’d fit into the toaster slots.

September 10, 2024: 6:51am

If you calibrate your antenna properly you can pick up on things the universe is trying to tell you.

(film, dead bird)

July 2, 2024: 10:01am

That’s all he talks about… projects. And I just sit there and think about the best orgasms I’ve ever had.

June 22, 2024: 7:42am

I feel like for the last ten years I’ve woken up everyday wondering what the point of my existence is.

June 3, 2024: 8:37am

The internet ruined this world. Technology is making us regress as a society. Is it just the end of mankind? 

uncle

2024

todo

2024

December 7, 2023: 2:27pm

There’s just so much I have to offer the world and no one there to accept it.

September 8, 2023: 6:45am

Why do I choose the most difficult mountains to climb?

September 1, 2023: 7:01am

I want more.

I want to be wildly fulfilled.

To let that negative energy out of my life… except I think the good energy went with it.

August 26, 2023: 6:03am

We’re just zombies walking through society with no heartbeat.

July 1, 2023: 8:02am

My heart is in my throat.

April 16, 2023: 11:11am

Being busy suits me. This shit, the not knowing what to do with my day, is not ok. It does not suit me.

February 10, 2023: 7:32am

This book I’m reading by this Russian physicist says we should not strive to be discovered according to his theory, we should let it all come to us. How do we try NOT to be discovered, while trying to be discovered?

November 2, 2022: 5:04pm

I feel unhinged. Like I’ve lost the thing that keeps the door on.

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